Cancer Free

Those two words don't exist in the same universe as one another.

After the consult with the oncologist, I've come to the conclusion that it won't ever happen.

This disease consumes you. It consumes everyone around you. It consumes breasts, lungs, blood, bones, ovaries, rectums. Everything. It consumes lives.

You will never be cancer free. Ever. It will always be in the back of your mind. It will always be lurking..you'll always wonder when, not if, it will attack again.

My mother's stage has been moved from two to three. She has stage three breast cancer. Pending, is the final diagnosis, as we have to go up to Salt Lake to get a PET scan to see if it's spread. If it has, it's stage four. The final stage. That's as far as they go, folks.

It's estrogen fed. That can be stopped with a pill. It will take a year of iv meds, so she's having a port put in.

Lots of other stuff surround this, but my brain is too jumbled to write all of it.